The Road to Find Fine

This post is for encouragement. It’s a post about self-love, self-discovery, and transformation. I love articles that talk about positive body image and loving yourself but it is not easy. I love these articles because it reminds me that I am not alone in my suffering.  I have been struggling with self-love, body image issues and mental health issues my whole life. I used to hate looking at myself naked. I used to avoid the mirror at all cost. I didn’t like my body: the way it was shaped, how clothes fit (or didn’t fit) on it, just all of it. I tried so many diets. I tried starving myself, fad diets, trainers and yet my weight did not move an inch. I had to trick myself into loving myself because this was all the body I was giving.

I want to blame society’s standard of beauty, but I also played a role in my self-loathing. It wasn’t like I wasn’t trying, I would go to Crossfit four days a week and I am a vegetarian. Yet, again the weight just would not come off no matter what I did. At the age of 26, I was the heaviest I had ever been. In order to combat that, I refused to buy clothes that would fit my unhealthy weight.

For 2018, I’m definitely trying something new. In this coming year, I planned on regime that I called: 100 days to fine. Fine meant to be sexy and okay with where I am at and where I want to be. Several things will happen during this journey.

  • I will attempt to do a work out every day; at least 30mins. Anything more and I’m just being an overachiever.  

  • I will attempt to make more meals at home. Now, if I end at the Taco Bell Drive through or craving some Chick-Fil-A fries then it is what it is, but my goal is to make more meals at home.

  • Cut out processed foods. This will be the thing that breaks my heart. I loooovvveee chips and salty foods. But no more! I can have them every once in a while but not to the extent of before.

  • I want to do morning affirmations. I need to change the way I see myself. So if that means writing things on my mirror and telling myself the things I need to hear to love myself then so be it.

  • I am going to use my Tumblr (Classicallydmd) to document my journey. I am using Tumblr because it is the most convenient underutilized of my social medias.

I am not alone in this journey. I have enlisted several of my friends on this 100-day journey and I hope we all find what we are looking for.

Final thoughts to anyone reading this. Be kind to yourself! The journey to self-love is not an easy one. You will love yourself on some days and hate yourself on other and that is okay. Be honest with your feelings. On the days you love yourself be happy, and grateful and pray. On the days you hate yourself remember that you have survived however many days with these feelings, and you will survive however many more.